You gain something, you lose something.

Content: Teenage angst and utter mayhem
So don't read if you don't like teenage boppy stuff and think it's all gay.

Forever is nonsense.
Best is rubbish.
I don't believe in those.

Disclaimer: This is a very long post.
I know that when in anger, I put words in people's mouths and faults which you think is nothing much really with people in normal days, Will all become some major henious crimes.

If it's your blog and you're free to say what you want,
This is my blog and I'm free to say what I want.

Flaming.

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Primary school days were my clique my clique my clique,
I sure led a blessed life with family at home, friends in school.
The clique was big, 10 odd people all together.
But as time went by,
we settled with

• Neo Siew Khoon
• Christina Ho
• Pek Yan Zhan
• Duan Meng Hao
• Jaslyn Quek

Yup, and basically we hang around together, after school, during assembly, project works and stuff.

Come around end of primary six, when everyone deliberated on Secondary schools,
(the same old me, undecisive and not knowing where to go, the same way I felt for CCA and most major stuff in my life),
I was thinking like,
"Okay, cool. I'ld be breaking away from my primary school friends, and maybe I could try having just one single close secondary school friend like in storybooks. Share everything with each other and shit."

Secondary school came. (It's darn fast how we're already in secondary 2 this year)
I still had Neo Siew Khoon. (L)

Coming to class life since me and her were in different classes, my goodfriend(s) came in pairs.
Since I didn't really fit like anywhere, heck the single good friend thought.
So that day during lab in science lesson and wondered what would I do w/o these two.
Not there, not those, No, no way would I fit there,
as I looked around the lab.

But enough.
So now I've come to this,
I'ld rather be alone, but not a loner.
I'm still the friendly person everyone knows me as,
It's duh dreadful to be like alone at sometimes like switching lessons,
But I'ld rather be not with people I don't fit in with,
or friends I can do w/o, or better off with.

To hell with all the past shits.

I'm so open to let whoever's-reading-my-blog know,
and just so you know it, I'm obviously not sneaking around.

1. Cheryl Lim Su Wen

"then presented SRP, you don't have to give me that look of yours, cause you ain't much better, at times i hate you, at times i love you, but this time, i can't tolerate it anymore, that complacency, the drama, that massive ego, just get over yourself."

Get over YOURSELF. Last time about the gans and whatnots, and all the shit. You gave a look too, which you didn't know.

"made it through science, and there were just some people who kept asking questions cause they thought that they were darn pro, when their slides weren't even average from the start. ( i shall say no more ) no, i'm not jealous of whatever you've got but just admit it, you have massive egos."

Big joke. You think your slides rocked? Well, you copied off OURS, and you admitted to me through sms, tyvm. You gave comments, and "helped" us. But did you? No, you didn't you simply said ours sucked, and it's alright to give bad comments, we can improve. But did you say how we can do better? No, you didn't. Then what's the point of even commenting on our powerpoint in the first place. Why keep using the word "ego", do you even know it's meaning? And wow, below this extract from your blog, below is "Abortion presentation rocked socks", which yours truly did with you. Talk about hypocritical.

(On Cheryl's tagboard)
2 Aug 08, 16:17 Jaslyn : Ok, just tell me straight who the srp people you are referring too.
Duh, I know it's us, and i know. The latest one has got to be me.
Leave Jf and cas and ws aside man, we just feel good it's finally acommplished the way you do, and just because we know how to ask questions that you don't doesnt mean you can critisize us.
this is your blog, and you can have all the heck you wanna say.
About the questions, I bet you just said all the load of crap cos youre afraid you don't know how to answer the questions and lose marks.
I may be like, shoving so many words in your mouth now, But I'm so sure so much of them is true.
You said "that look of yours", so you didnt know you had that look too on your face on both science lessons.
And come on, all the other groups knew how to answer ALL the questions, so if you're unsure cos your didn't even do your experiment, please be so goddamn sure we did all our experiments and also put efforts.
And your switched subjects from some music thing which i dont rmb, to clearing stains, from HOUSEHOLD PRODUCTS.
Oh, doesnt that ring a bell? stupid me, for thinking the idea your had was interesting and I was looking forward to your presentation, And you know what?
I'm disappointed to see your presentation slides had traces of our style,
So we wonder if you helped us last time was for helping, or for spying.
This may be over, cos I know you are very helpful when people need help, like the booth, yea, we're grateful for that.
And I didnt even know you posted that two posts, cos it's some times since i came to your blog.
Sang and cas told me you posted abt srp.
After I knew abt the first post I was like -.-, but you had the reason to be angry, cos we were really over.
But the second day I was angry and we didn't ask a f-in question. Hence the hateful looks, but you had those looks too.
That's alot of rant, Get over it, Srp is over.
And I thought about that day at MRT, embarass you, I thought I was foolish to have believed you so much. Forget it all. May you have a beautiful blessed fairytale life you've ever wanted. Goodbye.

You've turned into some poseur wanting more recognition from people around. You're evasive from answering questions cos you don't tell me truths, and want me to tell you truths. I'm talking about the whole milo shit. This is nothing to do with topic and is lame, but it's about the trust. Bet you've forgotten all about voicing out our unhappiness with each other. I've tried, and I've tried to make stuff alright. But when you have an unhappiness all you do is post some blog post leaving me to guess. How appreciative. It ain't the first time you badmouthed me in such a darn hypocritical backstabber way either, so who are you to talk about me?

2. Jassy Teo Ler Xi

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3. Neo Siew Khoon

Hey, You'ld probably be so caught in between by now. But be yourself. It's alright to talk to Jassy, and thanks, and you rock.

4. Aik Meng

Well, Cheryl would probably rant to you. Hm, yeap, long time since the T,AM, J, C lunching.

5. Timothy

Hello fatty. Hm, yeap, long time since the T,AM, J, C lunching.

6. Sharmini

Volleyball friend, if I were to stick to you, No, I don't want you to drift with your friends the way I am drifting.

7. Aqilah

Close to Cheryl, she can go to if we turn bad. Would drift from clique cos I stole Sharmini. Hm,

8. Jaini

Same drifting story.

9. Joyce

Cheryl's guide friend, she can go to if we turn bad.

10. Jassy has her netball friends,

but she's the only netballer in our class. Hm,

11. If I were to go with anyone else,

I would just stickout like a raw fish.

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Oh, heck it. The future shall decide for itself.
This psychobabble harangue post is so self-sabotaging.
This proves how I'm okay with people knowing about this,
So you,
shut
your
bigass
mouth
up,
Twerp.

Seriously, stfu.